DEAR DATU

Dear Datu // September 6, 2017

Wednesday – September 6, 2017 (4:28 PM)

The tri-tip is in the oven, and dinner is almost ready. I have an hour until it’s time to pick up my little one. Today is just a normal day.

But that’s it. This normal day has become one of the worst days of my life, and I’m trying my best to maintain my composure.

Even with that simple task, I’m not successful. Not today

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Dear Datu // August 3, 2017

Thursday – August 3, 2017 (9:37 AM)

Depression is a strange thing. You would think that after dealing with this mental illness for more than half of my life, that I would have some sort of control over it.

There’s days when it’s possible to maneuver around my roller coaster of emotions, and then there’s times when I have to just throw in the towel and let it take over.

This morning I threw in the towel.

But the hardest part of it all is that I succumbed to this depression in front of my son. As he sat there crying, I broke down and cried with him.

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Dear Datu // July 13, 2017

I’ve decided to start a new section within my blog entitled “Dear Datu.” Obviously playing on the idea of writing in one’s diary, I intend to spill out whatever is consuming my mind at that particular moment. 

Each entry will be completely unedited to maintain my thoughts and their authenticity.

I don’t know how long this will go on, but I assume it will be interesting. Or at the very least, a bit therapeutic on my part. 

We shall see. 

Thursday – July 13, 2017 (1:11 AM)

It’s times like this I really want to quit. My days are never-ending and there is no allotted time for relaxation within my schedule. I’m exhausted.

Some people say that during these occasions of vulnerability, we can discover some sort of revelation. Call what you will an “ah-ha” moment. Right now it’s feeling more like a “ha-ha” moment if you ask me.

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